{"id":4788,"date":"2011-03-23T21:00:37","date_gmt":"2011-03-23T19:00:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/tautastribunals.eu\/?p=4788"},"modified":"2011-03-23T21:00:37","modified_gmt":"2011-03-23T19:00:37","slug":"anna-marija-circene-parmainu-vejos","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/tautastribunals.eu\/?p=4788","title":{"rendered":"Anna Marija Circene. P\u0101rmai\u0146u v\u0113jos…"},"content":{"rendered":"

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S\u012bks putekl\u012bt’s p\u0101rmai\u0146u v\u0113jos…<\/span><\/h1>\n

\"Anna-Marija-Circene2\"Kad 1979. gad\u0101 s\u0101ku str\u0101d\u0101t milz\u012bg\u0101 divu pl\u016bsmu skol\u0101, biju \u012bsts \u201ckomunistisk\u0101s audzin\u0101\u0161anas\u201d produkts: tic\u0113ju, ka dz\u012bvojam pa\u0161\u0101 taisn\u012bg\u0101kaj\u0101 valst\u012b, ka \u201ccilv\u0113ks cilv\u0113kam biedrs, br\u0101lis, draugs\u201d, ka starp da\u017e\u0101du taut\u012bbu un rasu cilv\u0113kiem var vald\u012bt c\u0113la sapra\u0161an\u0101s un draudz\u012bba. Vislab\u0101ko j\u016btu vad\u012bta, biju ar mieru m\u0101c\u012bt ne tikai latvie\u0161u b\u0113rniem dzimto valodu un literat\u016bru, bet ar\u012b da\u017e\u0101s krievu klas\u012bt\u0113s latvie\u0161u valodu…<\/span><\/p>\n

P\u0113c p\u0101ris ned\u0113\u013c\u0101m l\u016bdzu direktori Tam\u0101ru J\u0101zepovnu samazin\u0101t manu slodzi, jo stundas krievu klas\u0113s v\u0113rt\u0101s smag\u0101 murg\u0101:\u00a0 tie nebija skol\u0113ni, kas p\u0113c zvana g\u0101z\u0101s kabinet\u0101, tas bija aurojo\u0161s zv\u0113ru bars, ko \u010detrdesmit piecas min\u016btes n\u0101c\u0101s vald\u012bt, lai vi\u0146i neizdemol\u0113tu telpu…<\/span><\/p>\n

Direktore manu l\u016bgumu noraid\u012bja: stundas jau esot tarific\u0113tas un tagad nu vismaz l\u012bdz otr\u0101 ceturk\u0161\u0146a beig\u0101m tas vezums esot j\u0101velk. Pamaz\u0101m r\u0113co\u0161ais, cits citam ar gr\u0101mat\u0101m un som\u0101m pa galvu belzo\u0161ais dauzo\u0146u bars s\u0101ka cik necik atg\u0101din\u0101t skol\u0113nus…<\/span><\/p>\n

Gandr\u012bz ik stunda ies\u0101k\u0101s ar skol\u0113nu \u017e\u0113lab\u0101m, cik labs bijis iepriek\u0161\u0113jais latvie\u0161u valodas skolot\u0101js: vi\u0146i stund\u0101s vai nu st\u0101st\u012bju\u0161i anekdotes, vai pild\u012bju\u0161i citu priek\u0161metu m\u0101jasdarbus… Es savuk\u0101rt br\u012bn\u012bjos, k\u0101 t\u0101d\u0101 gad\u012bjum\u0101 vi\u0146i tiku\u0161i pie atz\u012bm\u0113m, un piekritu klaus\u012bties anekdotes, ja vien vi\u0146i t\u0101s st\u0101st\u012bs latviski… N\u0113, t\u0101 nu gan neesot ar mieru! Un k\u0101p\u0113c visp\u0101r vi\u0146iem j\u0101m\u0101coties latvie\u0161u valoda, ja \u0161eit ir ‘sovetskij sojuz’ un visi run\u0101jot krieviski. J\u0101, bet ‘sovetskij sojuz’ \u2013 t\u0101s ir piecpadsmit savienot\u0101s republikas, v\u0113l l\u0113rums autonomo republiku un apgabalu un katr\u0101 ir sava viet\u0113j\u0101 valoda. Vai tad vi\u0146i grib vesel\u0101m taut\u0101m at\u0146emt vi\u0146u nacion\u0101lo valodu?! Zin\u0101mu apmulsumu pan\u0101cu… Un tad negaid\u012bti ierun\u0101j\u0101s z\u0113ns, kas vienm\u0113r pat\u012bkami izc\u0113l\u0101s ar st\u0101ju un uzved\u012bbu:<\/span><\/p>\n

– Pareizi vien ir. M\u016bs neviens \u0161urp neaicin\u0101ja. Un jau jau esam izv\u0113l\u0113ju\u0161ies \u0161eit dz\u012bvot, tad latvie\u0161u valoda mums vienk\u0101r\u0161i ir j\u0101zina.<\/span><\/p>\n

Diem\u017e\u0113l, starp gandr\u012bz simt skol\u0113niem, vi\u0146\u0161 t\u0101ds bija vien\u012bgais. Es v\u0113l \u0161odien atceros, ka vi\u0146u sauca Dans Ivko. Ak, n\u0113, bija v\u0113l viens jauks puis\u012btis, tumsn\u0113js, smalkiem sejas vaibstiem, kam, k\u0101 var\u0113ja noprast, derdz\u0101s p\u0101r\u0113jo uzved\u012bba… Reiz, stundai beidzoties, es vi\u0146am klus\u012bt\u0113m pajaut\u0101ju, kas vi\u0146\u0161 ir p\u0113c taut\u012bbas. Z\u0113ns samulsa. Par nelaimi, manu jaut\u0101jumu bija dzird\u0113jis Ivans, alb\u012bns puisis platiem vaigu kauliem, tas, palaidis zviedzienu, \u0146irdz\u012bgi pazi\u0146oja:<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0– Vi\u0146\u0161 ir oset\u012bns!<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0– N\u0113, n\u0113! Esmu krievs, esmu krievs! – sauca puis\u0113ns. Man tirpu\u013ci noskr\u0113ja p\u0101r kauliem: tik izmis\u012bgi noliegt savu taut\u012bbu!<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0– Tev nav j\u0101kaunas par savu taut\u012bbu. Tie\u0161i otr\u0101di, tu esi cits un tas ir lab\u0101k, nek\u0101 b\u016bt vienam no \u0161\u012b p\u016b\u013ca… – m\u0113\u0123in\u0101ju z\u0113nu mierin\u0101t, bet pati ar \u0161ausm\u0101m dom\u0101ju, vai var pien\u0101kt laiks, kad ar\u012b latvie\u0161u b\u0113rni s\u0101ks kaun\u0113ties par savu izcelsmi…<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0N\u0101kamos tr\u012bs gadus ar krievu skol\u0113niem sask\u0101ros vien starpbr\u012b\u017eos un kop\u012bgos sar\u012bkojumos, k\u0101du nebija \u012bpa\u0161i daudz: Oktobra un Uzvaras sv\u0113tki, Jaungads, komjaunatnes un pionieru organiz\u0101cijas dzim\u0161anas diena… Vienm\u0113r bija oblig\u0101ta ofici\u0101l\u0101 da\u013ca ar refer\u0101tiem un administr\u0101cijas uzrun\u0101m, kas, protams, skan\u0113ja krieviski. Skol\u0113nu priek\u0161nesumi gan skan\u0113ja ab\u0101s valod\u0101s. Ta\u010du bija viena nianse:\u00a0 ja latvie\u0161u b\u0113rni ar\u012b krievu pl\u016bsmas priek\u0161nesumus r\u0101tni klaus\u012bj\u0101s, tad, atskanot latvie\u0161u valodai, krievu skol\u0113nu aiz\u0146emtaj\u0101s kr\u0113slu rind\u0101s vald\u012bja t\u0101ds troksnis, ka nebija l\u0101ga dzirdams pat ko\u0157a sniegums! K\u0101p\u0113c? Iesp\u0113jams, t\u0101p\u0113c, ka nesaprata valodu… P\u0113c tam\u00a0 – diskot\u0113ka. Uz to latvie\u0161u b\u0113rni visbie\u017e\u0101k nemaz nepalika. K\u0101p\u0113c? Pirmk\u0101rt, nesaskan\u0113ja muzik\u0101l\u0101s gaumes. Nu nepatika un nepatika krievu \u201cmuzi\u010dka\u201d, ko miks\u0113ja administr\u0101cijas aicin\u0101tie d\u012bd\u017eeji! Otrk\u0101rt, tos retos latvie\u0161u puikas, kas tom\u0113r iz\u0161\u0137\u012br\u0101s palikt, itin bie\u017ei iekaust\u012bja… Parasti tas notika visai rafin\u0113ti: p\u0113k\u0161\u0146i z\u0101les tum\u0161\u0101kaj\u0101 st\u016br\u012b krievu \u010da\u013ci dejojot izveidoja gr\u016bst\u012bgu un bl\u012bvu murskuli, skan\u0113ja smiekli, sab\u013caust\u012b\u0161an\u0101s… De\u017e\u016brskolot\u0101ji parasti nepiev\u0113rsa tam uzman\u012bbu: sak’, lai jau tus\u0113jas! Reiz es izlauzos cauri tam murskulim… Krieve\u013ci pa\u0161\u0137\u012bda, palika viens latvie\u0161u puiki\u0146\u0161, slauc\u012bdams no p\u0101rsistas l\u016bpas asinis.<\/span><\/p>\n

Otr\u0101 dien\u0101 run\u0101ju ar administr\u0101ciju. No manis atv\u0113cin\u0101j\u0101s k\u0101 no uzm\u0101c\u012bgas mu\u0161as: nu, puikas sak\u0101vu\u0161ies. Liela mui\u017ea! Visos laikos puikas k\u0101vu\u0161ies… Mani iebildumi, ka tas nav kauti\u0146\u0161, kur bars sit vienu, ka tas saucams cit\u0101di, neatrada dzird\u012bgas ausis. Da\u017eas dienas v\u0113l\u0101k piekauto puiki\u0146u skolot\u0101ju istab\u0101 aiz apkakles ier\u0101va \u0101rpusklases darba organizatore Koverda: \u0161is te hulig\u0101ns piek\u0101vis divus krievu skol\u0113nus! Tas jau vairs neesot pat hulig\u0101nisms, tas ir NACION\u0100LISMS! Te nu es neiztur\u0113ju.<\/span><\/p>\n

– Re, k\u0101! – es teicu. – Kad Edgaru pirms da\u017e\u0101m dien\u0101m vesels bars sita, tad j\u016bs teic\u0101t: visos laikos puikas ir k\u0101vu\u0161ies. Kad nu vi\u0146\u0161 viens pats divus ie\u0161tauk\u0101jis, tad tas ir nacion\u0101lisms. D\u012bvaina attieksme.<\/span><\/p>\n

Koverda pal\u016br\u0113ja ar baltu aci, no\u0161\u0146\u0101c\u0101s un, durvis aizcirzdama, izmet\u0101s lauk\u0101… Iesp\u0113jams, ka tie\u0161i tai br\u012bd\u012b aizs\u0101k\u0101s vi\u0146as dzi\u013c\u0101 nepatika pret mani.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0Tad notika \u0161ausm\u012bga nelaime: darbm\u0101c\u012bbas stund\u0101s skolot\u0101js par audz\u0113k\u0146u izdar\u012bb\u0101m vienm\u0113r bija klap\u0113jis ar aus\u012bm, un reiz vienam pui\u0161elim ien\u0101ca pr\u0101t\u0101 uzgulties uz darbgalda. Smag\u0101 dzelzs plakne nebija nostiprin\u0101ta un uzg\u0101z\u0101s palaidnim virs\u016b. Z\u0113na dz\u012bv\u012bba nebija gl\u0101bjama… Gad\u012bjums pats par sevi bija tra\u0123isks, un, protams, ar\u012b cit\u0101di nepalika bez sek\u0101m: no skolas izlidoja gan skolot\u0101js, gan direktore. Tam\u0101ru J\u0101zepovnu nomain\u012bja Irma Ernestovna, ar krievu prec\u0113jusies latviete, kas abas savas meitas s\u016bt\u012bja krievu skol\u0101. Bija smiekl\u012bgi v\u0113rot, k\u0101 vi\u0146as vietnieki un krievu pl\u016bsmas skolot\u0101ji spietoja ap vi\u0146u, cik s\u012brupain\u0101s balsti\u0146\u0101s uzrun\u0101ja…<\/span><\/p>\n

Jauna slota t\u012bri slauka, un \u0161\u012b persona, protams, cent\u0101s ieviest savu k\u0101rt\u012bbu. P\u0113c pirm\u0101 sar\u012bkojuma, ko latvie\u0161u b\u0113rni pameta t\u016bli\u0146 p\u0113c ofici\u0101l\u0101s da\u013cas un koncerta, visi latvie\u0161u audzin\u0101t\u0101ji tika pa vienam aicin\u0101ti direktores kabinet\u0101. Tur s\u0113d\u0113ja visa administr\u0101cija: direktrise, vi\u0146as vietniece \u0101rpusklases audzin\u0101\u0161anas darb\u0101 Koverda, m\u0101c\u012bbu p\u0101rzines Motri\u010denko, Kravale un Kalni\u0146a, \u201carodbiedr\u012bba\u201d Baklanovka, partijas sekret\u0101re Gladuncova.\u00a0 \u201cUz tepi\u0137i izsauktajam\u201d vi\u0146u priek\u0161\u0101 bija j\u0101st\u0101v k\u0101j\u0101s… Un tad s\u0101k\u0101s krusteniska apstr\u0101de. Nezinu, vai pirms tam priek\u0161nieces bija sadal\u012bju\u0161as run\u0101jamo, ta\u010du smadzenes skaloja pamat\u012bgi. Rezum\u0113jums: klases audzin\u0101t\u0101js nenodro\u0161ina pedago\u0123isko vad\u012bbu, t\u0101p\u0113c pien\u0101kas r\u0101jiens.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ar mani paral\u0113lklas\u0113s str\u0101d\u0101jo\u0161\u0101s skolot\u0101jas izr\u0101d\u012bj\u0101s l\u012bdz\u012bgi dom\u0101jo\u0161as. T\u0101 nu katra atsevi\u0161\u0137i un visas kop\u0101 lauz\u012bj\u0101m galvas, k\u0101 izdar\u012bt t\u0101, lai latvie\u0161u b\u0113rni uz sar\u012bkojumu atn\u0101ktu. Un izdom\u0101j\u0101m: r\u012bkosim folkloras p\u0113cpusdienu! Pieteic\u0101m \u0101rpusklases darba organizatorei datumu un laiku, lai var ierakst\u012bt skolas darba pl\u0101n\u0101, izlik\u0101m afi\u0161u ar \u201cdarba uzdevumiem\u201d katrai klasei un s\u0101k\u0101m gatavoties. Noteiktaj\u0101 laik\u0101 uzr\u012bkoj\u0101m \u201cdal\u012bbnieku g\u0101jienu\u201d pa visiem st\u0101viem, lai visi kop\u0101 ierastos z\u0101l\u0113. B\u0113rni bija gan tautast\u0113rpos, gan mask\u0101s. Tas bija kr\u0101\u0161\u0146i! Visi sak\u0101pa uz skatuves un azartiski nodzied\u0101ja \u201cB\u0113du, manu lielu b\u0113du\u201d. Tad s\u0101k\u0101s priek\u0161nesumi: pasaku inscen\u0113jumi, dziesmas, tautas dejas… Skat\u012bt\u0101jos bija tikai latvie\u0161u klas\u012btes un … skol\u0113nu vec\u0101ki. Bari\u0146\u0161 krievu ies\u0101kum\u0101 pam\u012b\u0146\u0101j\u0101s pie durv\u012bm, tad aizg\u0101ja. Neviens jau vi\u0146us prom neraid\u012bja, ac\u012bmredzot pa\u0161i sajut\u0101s neomul\u012bgi. P\u0113c tam ierad\u0101s folkloras grupa \u201cSkandinieki\u201d un m\u0101c\u012bja b\u0113rniem latvie\u0161u dejas un rota\u013cas.<\/span><\/p>\n

V\u0113l ilgi p\u0113c folkloras vakara vald\u012bja pacil\u0101ts noska\u0146ojums. Un k\u0101 nu ne: sar\u012bkojums bija satuvin\u0101jis skol\u0113nus ne tikai klases robe\u017e\u0101s, bet ar\u012b starp klas\u0113m veidoj\u0101s tuv\u0101kas attiec\u012bbas… Nu latvie\u0161u pl\u016bsmas skolot\u0101jiem bija \u0101\u0137is l\u016bp\u0101! Kam\u0113r j\u016bsma nav noplakusi, j\u0101uzr\u012bko kas l\u012bdz\u012bgs uz Jaungadu. Lai iet liter\u0101rs karnev\u0101ls! Bet administr\u0101cija uzlika veto: b\u016b\u0161ot tradicion\u0101ls sar\u012bkojums ar \u201c\u0123edu morozu\u201d un \u201cs\u0146eg\u016bro\u010dku\u201d*! Bet vai klases vakaru var r\u012bkot? To var. Kla\u0161u audzin\u0101t\u0101ji norun\u0101j\u0101m: visas paral\u0113lklases r\u012bkos klases vakarus vienlaikus un iek\u013caus programm\u0101 bud\u0113\u013cos ie\u0161anu. Ar priek\u0161nesumiem. T\u0101 nu latvie\u0161u b\u0113rniem tika v\u0113l vieni sv\u0113tki.<\/span><\/p>\n

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* Salavecis un Sniegbalt\u012bte<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0N\u0101kamaj\u0101 septembr\u012b izl\u016bdz\u0101mies administr\u0101cijai at\u013cauju p\u0113c stund\u0101m doties uz kolhozu \u201cM\u0101rupe\u201d pe\u013c\u0146\u0101: skol\u0113ni grib pa\u0161i nopeln\u012bt ekskursij\u0101m naudu! Direktorei t\u0101da ideja pat patika. Un k\u0101 nu ne: var\u0113s palepoties ar skolas iniciat\u012bvu darbaudzin\u0101\u0161anas jom\u0101. M\u0113s tikai sm\u012bn\u0113j\u0101m b\u0101rd\u0101: ka p\u0113c talku<\/span><\/p>\n

m\u0113ne\u0161a pl\u0101nojam uzr\u012bkot ra\u017eas sv\u0113tkus, pats par sevi saprotams, tikai t\u0101m klas\u0113m, kas b\u016bs str\u0101d\u0101ju\u0161as kolhoz\u0101, to, protams, gudri noklus\u0113j\u0101m. Tie atkal b\u016bs latvie\u0161u b\u0113rnu sv\u0113tki, jo krievu klases ikreiz, kad k\u0101p\u0101m autobus\u0101 ar spai\u0146iem un groziem rok\u0101s, groz\u012bja pirkstu pie deni\u0146iem un \u0146irg\u0101j\u0101s. Bet latvie\u0161u b\u0113rni p\u0101ris stundas naski loc\u012bj\u0101s kartupe\u013cu lauk\u0101. Un bija priec\u012bgi: neb\u016bs j\u0101prasa vec\u0101kiem naudi\u0146a lielajai ekskursijai. Da\u017es, izpras\u012bjis brigadierim at\u013cauju, jau tai pa\u0161\u0101 dien\u0101 p\u0101rveda \u0123imenei pe\u013c\u0146u: spaini kartupe\u013cu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Izg\u0101ju\u0161i ofici\u0101lo proced\u016bru ar pieteik\u0161anu administr\u0101cijai, izlik\u0101m afi\u0161u: kas, kur, kad, cikos, kur\u0101m klas\u0113m paredz\u0113ts, kas katrai klasei j\u0101sagatavo… Direktore, paman\u012bjusi, ka ra\u017eas sv\u0113tku dal\u012bbnieku sarakst\u0101 nav nevienas krievu klases, sauca r\u012bkot\u0101jus \u201cuz kafiju\u201d: k\u0101p\u0113c notiekot \u201cb\u0113rnu dal\u012b\u0161ana\u201d? M\u0113s br\u012bn\u0101mies: k\u0101da dal\u012b\u0161ana?! Starp dal\u012bbniekiem neesot nevienas krievu pl\u016bsmas klases! Ak, t\u0101da dal\u012b\u0161ana… Ra\u017eas sv\u0113tki ir tikai tiem, kas piedal\u012bj\u0101s ra\u017eas nov\u0101k\u0161an\u0101. K\u0101p\u0113c krievu klases netika aicin\u0101tas? Neviens netika \u012bpa\u0161i aicin\u0101ts: pie sienas bija izlikts saraksts, kur katra klase pierakst\u012bj\u0101s sev izdev\u012bg\u0101 dien\u0101, krievu klases vienk\u0101r\u0161i nepierakst\u012bj\u0101s… Tas jau ar\u012b bija br\u012bvpr\u0101t\u012bgi! P\u0113c dzi\u013cdom\u012bgas pauzes: ja ar\u012b n\u0101kamgad ko t\u0101du r\u012bkosiet, noteikti j\u0101aicina ar\u012b otra pl\u016bsma. J\u0101, protams, bet spiest m\u0113s nevienu nevaram… Rudens talkas kolhoz\u0101 \u201cM\u0101rupe\u201d k\u013cuva par trad\u012bciju. J\u0101piez\u012bm\u0113, ka nevienu gadu neviena krievu klase talkai nepieteic\u0101s.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

T\u0101diem s\u012bkiem pilieni\u0146iem vien m\u0113s drupin\u0101j\u0101m p\u0101rkrievo\u0161anas \u017e\u0146audzo\u0161o m\u016bri, ne par k\u0101du \u201cpreto\u0161an\u0101s kust\u012bbu\u201d nemaz nedom\u0101jot, vien\u012bgi cen\u0161oties latvie\u0161u b\u0113rniem sag\u0101d\u0101t pa k\u0101dam s\u012bkam prieka mirklim.<\/span><\/p>\n

Nom\u0101co\u0161as bija nenov\u0113r\u0161am\u0101s ierindas skates 23. febru\u0101r\u012b, armijas dibin\u0101\u0161anas dien\u0101. To uzskat\u012bja par patriotismu audzino\u0161u. Klas\u0113m bija j\u0101so\u013co ierind\u0101, j\u0101dzied patriotiskas dziesmas un vis\u0101di cit\u0101di j\u0101demonstr\u0113 \u201cpadomju patriotisms\u201d. Noteica ar\u012b uzvar\u0113t\u0101jus, kas, protams, nekad nebija k\u0101da latvie\u0161u klase. Un cit\u0101di nemaz nebija iesp\u0113jams: krievi ska\u013c\u0101k b\u013c\u0101va dziesmu, vi\u0146u \u201ckomandieriem\u201d bija spalg\u0101kas un griez\u012bg\u0101kas balsis… Turkl\u0101t\u00a0 \u201c\u017e\u016brijai\u201d nekad nebija pa pr\u0101tam latvie\u0161u izv\u0113l\u0113tas dziesmas, piem\u0113ram, \u201cDiv’ d\u016bji\u0146as gais\u0101 skr\u0113ja\u201d, \u201cEs kar\u0101(i) aiziedams\u201d, slikt\u0101kaj\u0101 gad\u012bjum\u0101 \u201cReiz c\u0113l\u0101s str\u0113lnieks sarkanais\u201d…\u00a0 Vi\u0146upr\u0101t, patriotiski bija krieviski dzied\u0101t pilso\u0146ka\u0157a un Otr\u0101 pasaules jeb, k\u0101 tai iek\u0101rt\u0101 d\u0113v\u0113ja, Liel\u0101 t\u0113vijas ka\u0157a dziesmas. Ak, n\u0113! Reiz gan latvie\u0161u klas\u012bte ieguva godalgotu vietu! Pionieru pulci\u0146\u0161 bija nosaucis sevi par \u201cErgl\u0113nu\u201d, so\u013cojot dzied\u0101ja pilso\u0146ka\u0157a dziesmu \u201c\u0112rgl\u0113ns\u201d un vi\u0146u komandieris bija Gvido Vasi\u013cjevs, ko \u0161odien visi paz\u012bst k\u0101 Gvido Lingu… Vi\u0146\u0161 nez’ kur bija izr\u0101vis karav\u012bra virsjaku un cepuri ar sarkanu zvaigzni pier\u0113…<\/span><\/p>\n

Otra pas\u0101kuma nosaukumu vairs neatceros, ta\u010du taj\u0101 ik klasei bija \u201cj\u0101teatraliz\u0113\u201d patriotiska dziesma… Protams, krievi visbie\u017e\u0101k bija bru\u0146oju\u0161ies \u201c\u0161aujamiem\u201d, uz skatuves bija liels troksnis un d\u016bmu smaka, vi\u0146i ieman\u012bj\u0101s uzvedum\u0101 iek\u013caut pat \u201cpatriotiskas\u201d dejas… Latvie\u0161i izl\u012bdz\u0113j\u0101s ar dzejas un dziesmu mont\u0101\u017eu un skum\u012bgi klaus\u012bj\u0101s rezult\u0101tus. Vien\u0101 t\u0101d\u0101 reiz\u0113 notika br\u012bnums! Uz skati bija ieradusies \u013be\u0146ingradas rajona* Pionieru nama p\u0101rst\u0101ve. (Uzv\u0101rdu par laimi vai par nelaimi neatceros.) Vi\u0146a, protams, tika uzaicin\u0101ta par \u017e\u016brijas priek\u0161s\u0113d\u0113t\u0101ju. Un notika br\u012bnums: pirmo vietu ieguva mana klase ar mont\u0101\u017eu par latvie\u0161u str\u0113lniekiem! Viese teica: emocion\u0101ls, saturiski un m\u0101kslinieciski kvalitat\u012bvs priek\u0161nesums. Krievu skolot\u0101ji kurn\u0113ja, Koverda vi\u0146us mierin\u0101ja: ne jau katrreiz k\u0101ds no malas s\u0113d\u0113s \u017e\u016brij\u0101! Bet p\u0113d\u0113j\u0101 m\u0113\u0123in\u0101jum\u0101 es biju jaut\u0101jusi b\u0113rniem, vai tom\u0113r kaut k\u0101d\u0101 veid\u0101 nevajadz\u0113tu iekompon\u0113t kaut ko jestru, t\u0101du, kas krieviem patiktu… Delver\u012bg\u0101 Gunita laida va\u013c\u0101 krievu pietupienus ar iekliedzieniem… Visi kop\u0101 apsm\u0113j\u0101mies un nol\u0113m\u0101m: lai paliek, k\u0101 ir. Protams, biju \u013coti gandar\u012bta, ka b\u0113rnu darbs atzin\u012bgi nov\u0113rt\u0113ts. Biju pateic\u012bga Gunitai, kas par\u0101d\u012bja, cik mu\u013c\u0137\u012bga b\u016btu izdab\u0101\u0161ana sve\u0161ai gaumei.<\/span><\/p>\n

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*Tagad Kurzemes priek\u0161pils\u0113ta.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

Reiz latvie\u0161u un krievu at\u0161\u0137ir\u012bg\u0101 gaume gandr\u012bz izrais\u012bja konfliktu. Jau min\u0113ju, ka krievisk\u0101 administr\u0101cija \u013coti p\u016bl\u0113j\u0101s satuvin\u0101t abu pl\u016bsmu audz\u0113k\u0146us. T\u0101 nu pirms p\u0113d\u0113j\u0101 zvana manai un vienai krievu klasei \u201cuzdeva par pien\u0101kumu\u201d kop\u012bgi sapost aktu z\u0101li. Klases sadal\u012bja teritoriju: man\u0113jie greznoja skatuvi, uz fona kulises no piene\u0146u ziediem izveidojot zvana un m\u0113l\u012btes kont\u016bru un ar bl\u012bvu piene\u0146ziedu v\u012btni ap\u0161ujot priek\u0161kara vertik\u0101lo malu, ko m\u0101kslinieciski ats\u0113ja. T\u0101da pati zeltaina v\u012btne greznoja skatuves malu. Prosc\u0113nij\u0101 novietoja milz\u012bgu gr\u012bdas v\u0101zi ar pusplauku\u0161iem ievu zariem… Izskat\u012bj\u0101s gl\u012bti un, m\u016bsupr\u0101t, gaum\u012bgi. Krievu b\u0113rni z\u0101l\u0113 vis\u0101s iesp\u0113jam\u0101s viet\u0101s sak\u0101ra kr\u0101sainus balonus un sarkanus karodzi\u0146us… Kad nu pazi\u0146oj\u0101m, ka esam beigu\u0161i, krievu b\u0113rni sa\u0161uta: kas tad tas par rot\u0101jumu! Un gras\u012bj\u0101s ar\u012b uz skatuves sakabin\u0101t balonus. Man\u0113jie pret\u012b k\u0101 siena, ne\u013c\u0101va nemaz k\u0101pt uz skatuves! Apjuku, \u0161\u0137ita: ar gr\u016bst\u012b\u0161anos vien neiztiks. Iejauc\u0101s krievu pl\u016bsmas audzin\u0101t\u0101ja, skolot\u0101ja Vastl\u0101ja, krieviete, bet, k\u0101 liecina uzv\u0101rds, prec\u0113jusies ar latvieti, un ac\u012bmredzot m\u016bsu gaumi jau iepazinusi un pie\u0146\u0113musi. Vi\u0146a saviem audz\u0113k\u0146iem t\u0101 ar\u012b pateica, ka par gaumi nestr\u012bdas un, vi\u0146aspr\u0101t, skatuve izskatoties jauki… \u013boti neapmierin\u0101ti vi\u0146as audz\u0113k\u0146i izkl\u012bda…<\/span><\/p>\n

Pazemojo\u0161as v\u0113rt\u0101s ceturk\u0161\u0146u un gada nosl\u0113guma pedago\u0123isk\u0101s padomes s\u0113des, kad kla\u0161u audzin\u0101t\u0101jiem n\u0101c\u0101s zi\u0146ot par savu audz\u0113k\u0146u sekm\u0113m un uzved\u012bbu: krievu pl\u016bsm\u0101 praktiski nebija nesekm\u012bgo, toties latvie\u0161iem – ik klas\u0113 vair\u0101ki. Izn\u0101ca, ka latvie\u0161u b\u0113rni ir glup\u0101ki. Bet es no pieredzes iepriek\u0161\u0113j\u0101 skol\u0101 zin\u0101ju, ka krievu skolot\u0101ji m\u0101ksl\u012bgi \u201ctaisa\u201d sekmes. Tolaik gandr\u012bz bij\u012bgi uzl\u016bkoju \u010detras skolnieces, kas gras\u012bj\u0101s beigt skolu ar zelta meda\u013cu. (T\u0101tad visus desmit gadus nom\u0101c\u012bju\u0161\u0101s uz piecniekiem* vien!) Bet ruden\u012b \u201cSkolot\u0101ju Av\u012bz\u0113\u201d par Daugavpils Pedago\u0123isko instit\u016btu izlas\u012bju rakstu. Tas v\u0113st\u012bja, ka no \u010detr\u0101m meda\u013cniec\u0113m vien\u012bgaj\u0101 eks\u0101men\u0101, k\u0101ds tolaik iest\u0101joties izcilniekiem bija j\u0101k\u0101rto, proti, j\u0101raksta sacer\u0113jums dzimtaj\u0101 valod\u0101, tr\u012bs dab\u016bju\u0161as divniekus, viena \u2013 trijnieku… Bija ar\u012b min\u0113ts, ka visas \u010detras absolv\u0113ju\u0161as R\u012bgas 48. vidusskolu, to, ku\u0157\u0101 biju str\u0101d\u0101jusi.\u00a0 Reiz ar kol\u0113\u0123iem p\u0101rrun\u0101j\u0101m, vai ar\u012b mums nevajadz\u0113tu vismaz nesekm\u012bgos ikreiz \u201ciztais\u012bt\u201d par viduv\u0113jiem skol\u0113niem. Un… noskurin\u0101j\u0101mies no t\u0101das domas vien.<\/span><\/p>\n

Nekad neaizmirs\u012b\u0161u lekciju par starptautisko st\u0101vokli, ko skolot\u0101jiem las\u012bja no Zin\u0101t\u0146u biedr\u012bbas pieaicin\u0101ts lektors. Protams, lekcija bija krievu valod\u0101. Jaut\u0101jumu un atbil\u017eu da\u013c\u0101, ac\u012bmredzot, p\u0101rliecin\u0101ts, ka ieradies krievu skol\u0101, lektors vien\u0101 br\u012bdi, pieklusin\u0101jis balsi, sazv\u0113rnieciski teica: \u201cLati\u0161i ve\u0123 vse na zapad og\u013c\u0101divajutsa, pa\u010d\u0137i u ka\u017edovo tam rod\u0146a.\u201d** Tai br\u012bd\u012b visa z\u0101le sinhroni pagrieza galvas un nosodo\u0161i skat\u012bj\u0101s uz nabaga latviet\u012b\u0161iem, kas vienkop s\u0113d\u0113ja z\u0101les beig\u0101s. Skolot\u0101ja P\u012br\u0101ga demonstrat\u012bvi piec\u0113l\u0101s un pameta telpu. Es ar\u012b sakust\u0113jos, tom\u0113r, apvald\u012bjusi v\u0113lmi vi\u0146ai sekot, paliku s\u0113\u017eam…<\/span><\/p>\n

Vasar\u0101s komjaunatnes CK*** organiz\u0113ja republikas m\u0113roga milit\u0101ri patriotiskas nometnes un skol\u0101m bija j\u0101nodro\u0161ina kontingents. Tovasar man\u0113jie jau beidza desmito klasi. Sagad\u012bj\u0101s t\u0101, ka no m\u016bsu skolas piepras\u012bja tie\u0161i tik pui\u0161u, cik m\u0101c\u012bj\u0101s man\u0101 klas\u0113. Tad nu audzin\u0101t\u0101jai \u201cuzlika par pien\u0101kumu\u201d nodro\u0161in\u0101t, lai visi brauktu uz nometni. Lai pas\u0101kums izskat\u012btos br\u012bvpr\u0101t\u012bgs, puik\u0101m bija j\u0101raksta iesniegums. Kad par t\u0101du perspekt\u012bvu ierun\u0101jos, z\u0113ni jaut\u0101ja, vai es maz zinot, kas tais nometn\u0113s notiekot. Nu, vis\u0101das sporta sp\u0113les un vingrin\u0101\u0161an\u0101s \u0161au\u0161an\u0101. Protams, protams! Bet nakt\u012bs, kad j\u0101gu\u013c, krieve\u013ci n\u0101kot latvie\u0161us sist… Man mati sl\u0113j\u0101s st\u0101vus, kad iedom\u0101jos, k\u0101 var\u00a0 justies, kad tev, mieg\u0101 esot, uzbr\u016bk. Tom\u0113r \u012bsti netic\u0113ju, ka t\u0101 kaut kas var notikt: tur ta\u010du ir ar\u012b pieaugu\u0161ie, pedagogi: audzin\u0101t\u0101ji un \u201cfizruki\u201d.****<\/span><\/p>\n

Reiz no\u0137\u0113ru puisi, kas iepriek\u0161\u0113j\u0101 vasar\u0101 bija tai nometn\u0113 bijis. Vi\u0146\u0161 z\u0113nu teikto apstiprin\u0101ja…<\/span><\/p>\n

T\u0101 nu es nek\u0101das \u012bpa\u0161\u0101s p\u0101rrunas ar saviem puik\u0101m nerisin\u0101ju, turkl\u0101t jau maij\u0101 biju no vec\u0101kiem uzzin\u0101jusi katra pui\u0161a vasaras pl\u0101nus: da\u017es brauks uz laukiem pie radiem, da\u017es str\u0101d\u0101s, citam bija<\/span><\/p>\n

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*Tolaik augst\u0101kais sekmju v\u0113rt\u0113jums.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

**\u201cVisi latvie\u0161i ta\u010du uz Rietumiem skat\u0101s, gandr\u012bz katram tur radi.\u201d<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

***Centr\u0101l\u0101 Komiteja \u2013 komjaunatnes organiz\u0101cijas augst\u0101kais org\u0101ns.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

****\u0160odien – sporta skolot\u0101js.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

sporta nometne. Neviens nepl\u0101noja vasaru vienk\u0101r\u0161i nobumbul\u0113t… T\u0101 ar\u012b pateicu \u0101rpusklases darba organiz\u0101torei. Kas tad s\u0101k\u0101s! Es, partijas biedre, nepak\u013caujoties augst\u0101ku org\u0101nu r\u012bkojumiem, netiekot gal\u0101 ar pedago\u0123iskiem uzdevumiem, vai man maz vieta skol\u0101. Tad nu pateicu, ka par nometni ir \u013coti sliktas atsauksmes, ka latvie\u0161u puiki\u0146us tur nep\u0101rtraukti klap\u0113jot… No kurienes man t\u0101das zi\u0146as?! No tiem, kas to izbaud\u012bju\u0161i… Lai nosaucot mel\u012bgo baumu izplat\u012bt\u0101jus! Izmelojos, ka nemaz nezinu visu uzv\u0101rdus. Uz mirkl\u012bti Koverda pierima. P\u0113c ned\u0113\u013cas atkal no\u0137\u0113ra mani aiz piedurknes: kad beidzot man\u0113jie uzrakst\u012b\u0161ot iesniegumus?! Cit\u0101di manu \u201clietu\u201d izskat\u012b\u0161ot rajona partijas komitej\u0101, pat CK. Man, pedagogam, j\u0101sp\u0113jot skol\u0113nus p\u0101rliecin\u0101t par pas\u0101kuma nepiecie\u0161am\u012bbu… Atbild\u0113ju, ka nesp\u0113ju p\u0101rliecin\u0101t par to, par ko pati neesmu p\u0101rliecin\u0101ta.<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Nu, vai ziniet, Anna Ado\u013cfovna, pat es neiedro\u0161inos ap\u0161aub\u012bt CK l\u0113mumus.<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bet CK ta\u010du ar\u012b str\u0101d\u0101 tikai cilv\u0113ki, kas t\u0101pat var k\u013c\u016bd\u012bties…, – t\u0101 es.<\/span><\/p>\n

Nu mani katru dienu sauca te pie direktores, te pie Koverdas un strost\u0113ja un draud\u0113ja, draud\u0113ja un strost\u0113ja, l\u012bdz reiz noraud\u0101jusies ien\u0101cu klas\u0113. Skol\u0113ni jaut\u0101, kas noticis. Izst\u0101stu. Labi, skolot\u0101j, t\u016bl\u012bt visi uzrakst\u012bsim tos iesniegumus. Bet uz nometni nebrauksim…<\/span><\/p>\n

Dienas beig\u0101s ienesu visu vienpadsmit iesniegumus. Koverda triumfi\u0101li smaid\u012bja, es iek\u0161\u0113ji sm\u012bn\u0113ju…<\/span><\/p>\n

Dien\u0101, kad autobusam vajadz\u0113ja pui\u0161us aizvizin\u0101t uz nometni, mani atsauca no atva\u013cin\u0101juma: lika noskaidrot, k\u0101p\u0113c neviens no pui\u0161iem nav ieradies… Noliku uz galda visu vec\u0101ku jau maij\u0101 rakst\u012bto inform\u0101ciju par sava b\u0113rna vasaras nodarb\u0113m. Dab\u016bju smagu r\u0101jienu. (D\u012bvain\u0101 k\u0101rt\u0101 to neierakst\u012bja darba gr\u0101mati\u0146\u0101*; dom\u0101jams, sekret\u0101res k\u016btruma d\u0113\u013c. Gan jau k\u0101dos \u201cprotokolos\u201d ir, ja vien t\u0101di saglab\u0101ju\u0161ies.)<\/span><\/p>\n

Vasara pag\u0101ja mier\u012bgi, toties septembr\u012b puikas pa vienam tika ‘\u0113vel\u0113ti’ skol\u0113nu kojaunatnes komitej\u0101. Man \u0161\u012b eksek\u016bcija bija j\u0101skat\u0101s. Bez \u0101rpusklases darba organiz\u0101tores Koverdas un partijas pirmorganiz\u0101sijas sekret\u0101res Gladuncovas ap galdu s\u0113d\u0113ja \u201camatpersonas\u201d no krievu klas\u0113m un pra\u0161\u0146\u0101ja, pra\u0161\u0146\u0101ja. Bija \u017e\u0113l klaus\u012bties, k\u0101 mani puis\u0113ni krievu m\u0113l\u0113 p\u016blas pamatot savu nost\u0101ju. Bet tad ien\u0101ca Andris, skaists tum\u0161matis\u00a0 ar c\u012bksto\u0146a st\u0101ju, nosauca savu v\u0101rdu, uzv\u0101rdu un uz visiem jaut\u0101jumiem, pat aicin\u0101ts run\u0101t krieviski, atbild\u0113ja latviski. Gladuncova, kas cik necik bija ielauz\u012bjusies latviski, uzmet\u0101s par tulku… \u201cKo es tur b\u016btu guvis?\u201d p\u0101rtulkoja k\u0101 \u201ckas man par to tiktu\u201d… Es iebildu: tulkojums liek dom\u0101t par materi\u0101lu guvumu, atbild\u0113 skan kas cits…<\/span><\/p>\n

Kop\u0161 t\u0101 laika es ar visu klasi biju \u201czem lupas\u201d. Ik pa ned\u0113\u013cai n\u0101ca stund\u0101s; skolas de\u017e\u016bru laik\u0101 bezmaz ar baltu dr\u0101ni\u0146u p\u0101rbaud\u012bja, cik b\u0113rni t\u012bri gr\u012bdas izmazg\u0101ju\u0161i; Koverda s\u0113d\u0113ja gandr\u012bz katr\u0101 audzin\u0101\u0161anas stund\u0101. Hospit\u0113ja. T\u0101, it k\u0101 m\u0113s b\u016btu vien\u012bg\u0101 klase! Reiz l\u012bdz ar zvanu neien\u0101ca un m\u0113s atviegloti uzelpoj\u0101m, ta\u010du komjaunie\u0161u grupas sapulci ies\u0101k\u0101m p\u0113c visiem standartiem. Ilona tikko bija noskait\u012bjusi ies\u0101kuma \u201cmantru\u201d, kad sp\u0113ji tika atrautas durvis un ieg\u0101z\u0101s Koverda.<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Kas jums te notiek?<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Komjaunie\u0161u sapulce, – Ilona saka krieviski.<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 K\u0101da tematika? – Ilona samulsusi skat\u0101s man\u012b. Saprotu, ka neprot p\u0101rtulkot…<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Zad\u0101\u0146ija komsomola…** – nepag\u016bstu pabeigt teikumu, kad Koverda ind\u012bgi izlabo:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Zad\u0101\u010di!** – Nu, ja zad\u0101\u010di, tad zad\u0101\u010di. Neiebilstu. \u010c\u016bskas skatiens nolod\u0101 gar skol\u0113nu augumiem, aiz\u0137eras pie And\u0157a. K\u0101p\u0113c neesot formas t\u0113rp\u0101? Visi cits caur citu s\u0101k saukt:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 K\u0101 tad nav formas t\u0113rp\u0101?!<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pie formas t\u0113rpa j\u0101n\u0113s\u0101 sarkana kaklasaite, nevis kaut k\u0101da \u0161\u0146ore!<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 T\u0101 nav nek\u0101da \u0161\u0146ore, t\u0101 ir tautiska priev\u012bte.<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 K\u0101 j\u016bs iedro\u0161in\u0101ties run\u0101t pret\u012b! – Koverda jau nevald\u0101s un kliedz. Tai br\u012bd\u012b atskan And\u0157a mier\u012bgais baritons:<\/span><\/p>\n

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* Krievu laika dokuments, ku\u0157\u0101 ierakst\u012bja darbavietas, to mai\u0146u, ar\u012b apbalvojumus un r\u0101jienus. <\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

** Komjaunatnes uzdevumi; latviski zada\u010di un zad\u0101\u0146ija tulkojami k\u0101 uzdevumi.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a0– Vi tut \u0146eari\u0137e…* – Koverda gandr\u012bz aizrijas, tad caur zobiem izgr\u016b\u017e:<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0– Eto o\u010de\u0146 nepri\u013ci\u010dnoje slovo…** – Un aiziet…<\/span><\/p>\n

Smiekl\u012bgi, bet, p\u0101rg\u0101jusi m\u0101j\u0101s, mekl\u0113ju krievu – latvie\u0161u v\u0101rdn\u012bc\u0101 \u201cnepiekl\u0101j\u012bg\u0101\u201d v\u0101rda tulkojumu: bija atz\u012bm\u0113ts k\u0101 sarunvalodas v\u0101rds. Nu, krievi jau ar\u012b v\u0101rdu \u201ckrievs\u201d uztv\u0113ra k\u0101 lamuv\u0101rdu… \u201c\u010celovek russkoi naciona\u013cnos\u0137i\u201d… (Krievu taut\u012bbas cilv\u0113ks.) K\u0101p\u0113c gan latvietis pieder\u012bbu savai n\u0101cijai neuzskata par apkaunojumu?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0Bija mums ang\u013cu valodas skolot\u0101ja. Sieviete ap tr\u012bsdesmit ar madonnas seji\u0146u, ta\u010du padevusies dzer\u0161anas netikumam, kas pamaz\u0101m bija s\u0101cis iez\u012bm\u0113ties sejas vaibstos. Kad man bija \u201clogs\u201d***, ang\u013cu valodas stundas notika man\u0101 kabinet\u0101. Ar\u012b krievu klas\u0113m. Tad es parasti izl\u016bdzos at\u013cauju s\u0113d\u0113t p\u0113d\u0113j\u0101 sol\u0101 un labot rakstu darbus. Vi\u0146a pat priec\u0101j\u0101s: b\u016b\u0161ot viegl\u0101k ar discipl\u012bnu! Vien\u0101 t\u0101d\u0101 reiz\u0113 p\u0113k\u0161\u0146i ang\u013cu valodas viet\u0101 dzirdu krieviski sac\u012btu:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u0145e pa\u010dkai partu!**** – Mani audz\u0113k\u0146i vasaras br\u012bvlaik\u0101 kop\u0101 ar vec\u0101kiem bija izremont\u0113ju\u0161i kabinetu. Ar\u012b soli tika p\u0101rkr\u0101soti no apnic\u012bgi pel\u0113k\u0101 skaisti b\u0113\u0161\u012bg\u0101 kr\u0101s\u0101, un man\u012b uzbangoja sa\u0161utums:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Kak svi\u0146ji: g\u0123e si\u0123at, tam p\u0101kast\u0146i\u010dajut…***** No priek\u0161\u0113jiem soliem atskan\u0113ja:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Krievu cuka…<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A vot eto ti skazal,***** – es piebildu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Dr\u012bz notika k\u0101rt\u0113j\u0101 pedago\u0123isk\u0101 darba v\u0113rt\u0113\u0161ana, ku\u0157\u0101 man\u0113jo atzina par labu esam. Koverda p\u0113c tam man zem \u010detr\u0101m ac\u012bm teica:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Anna Ado\u013cfovna, vsjo taki takije slova, kak svi\u0146j\u0101, p\u0101kast\u0146i\u010da\u0137, \u0146e nado upotreb\u013ca\u0137…******<\/span><\/p>\n

Tas notika v\u0113l pirms klizmas ar milit\u0101ro nometni, kad mans darbs administr\u0101cijas ac\u012bs kot\u0113j\u0101s visai augstu; nu no slav\u0113jamas skolot\u0101jas biju k\u013cuvusi par visvair\u0101k pelto. Nebija nevienas skolot\u0101ju pulc\u0113\u0161an\u0101s, kad netiktu piemin\u0113ts k\u0101ds manu audz\u0113k\u0146u \u201cnoziegums\u201d vai manis pa\u0161as nosod\u0101mie nodar\u012bjumi… Piem\u0113ram, gad\u012bjums ar Gunitu, impuls\u012bvu, nesavald\u012bgu meiteni, ta\u010du ar milz\u012bgu taisn\u012bguma izj\u016btu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Todien man\u0113jiem iekrita skolas de\u017e\u016bra, kad j\u0101izmazg\u0101 visi skolas gaite\u0146i. Gunitas p\u0101rzi\u0146\u0101 bija tre\u0161ais st\u0101vs. Paciet\u012bgi sagaid\u012bjusi, kad beidzas visas stundas, meitene r\u016bp\u012bgi izslauc\u012bja gaiteni, tad s\u0101ka mazg\u0101t… Vestibil\u0101 uzrad\u0101s bari\u0146\u0161 krieve\u013cu. Br\u012bdi \u0146irgdami v\u0113roja Gunitas darbo\u0161anos. tad viens ieg\u0101ja gaiten\u012b un ieskr\u0113jien\u0101 iesp\u0113ra pa spaini. Tas g\u0101z\u0101s, ap\u0161\u013c\u0101kdams ne tikai gr\u012bdu, bet ar\u012b sienu un pa\u0161u mazg\u0101t\u0101ju, tr\u0101p\u012bdams ar\u012b sej\u0101… Gunita, protams, sac\u0113la traci, turkl\u0101t, cik sp\u0113ka, ieg\u0101za dra\u0146\u0137im ar to pa\u0161u net\u012bro slotu. Tas, nebals\u012b br\u0113kdams, aizmet\u0101s s\u016bdz\u0113ties un \u017e\u0113loties, bet Gunita, kliegdama, ka latvie\u0161us visp\u0101r par cilv\u0113kiem netur, ka vienk\u0101r\u0161i j\u0101lec vai pa logu lauk\u0101, raust\u012bja loga r\u0101mi… Apsk\u0101vu Gunitu, slauc\u012bju asaraino seji\u0146u, mierin\u0101ju…<\/span><\/p>\n

Pedagogu sapulc\u0113 notikumu atrefer\u0113ja \u0161\u0101di: z\u0113ns vienk\u0101r\u0161i g\u0101jis gar\u0101m, kad Gunita, \u0161\u012b \u201chu\u013ciganka\u201d, metusies vi\u0146am virs\u016b ar slotu, bet skolot\u0101ja Circene nevis aizvedusi cietu\u0161o pie \u0101rsta, bet glaud\u012bjusi aptraku\u0161o, mierin\u0101dama: \u201cGu\u0146ito\u010dka, Gu\u0146ito\u010dka…\u201d\u00a0 Klaus\u012bjos un netic\u0113ju sav\u0101m aus\u012bm. Un kas b\u016btu vain\u012bgs, ja meitene tie\u0161\u0101m b\u016btu izlekusi pa tre\u0161\u0101 st\u0101va logu?<\/span><\/p>\n

Uz pavasa\u0157a pusi s\u0101k\u0101s m\u012bklaini zvani nakt\u012bs. Tolaik mana m\u0101mu\u013ca smagi slimoja, t\u0101p\u0113c nevar\u0113ju vakaros vienk\u0101r\u0161i atsl\u0113gt telefonu, jo jebku\u0157\u0101 br\u012bd\u012b var\u0113ja pien\u0101kt zi\u0146a, ka m\u0101mu\u013cai pavisam slikti… M\u0113ne\u0161us divus nakts zvanu moc\u012bta, aizg\u0101ju uz miliciju. Izst\u0101st\u012bju par nakts teroru un l\u016bdzu piesl\u0113gt.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0*J\u016bs te neaurojiet!<\/span><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

**Tas ir \u013coti nepiekl\u0101j\u012bgs v\u0101rds.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

***Br\u012bva stunda, p\u0113c ku\u0157as atkal ir stunda.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

****Nesm\u0113r\u0113 solu…<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

*****K\u0101 c\u016bkas: kur s\u0113\u017e, tur \u0137\u0113z\u012b…<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

******Bet to, l\u016bk, teici tu!<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

*******Anna Ado\u013cfovna, tom\u0113r t\u0101dus v\u0101rdus k\u0101 c\u016bka, \u0137\u0113z\u012bties nevajag lietot.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

noklaus\u012b\u0161anos…<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

Mani, protams, laipni \u201cat\u0161uva\u201d: t\u0101da iesp\u0113ja b\u016b\u0161ot varb\u016bt p\u0113c m\u0113ne\u0161iem trim. Skol\u0101 palaidu p\u012bli, ka esmu bijusi milicij\u0101 un ka manu t\u0101lruni nu noklaus\u0101s. Zvani mit\u0113j\u0101s…<\/span><\/p>\n

Nep\u0101rtrauktas nepatik\u0161anas darb\u0101, m\u0101tes slim\u012bba, hroniska neizgul\u0113\u0161an\u0101s nakts zvanu d\u0113\u013c \u2013 vai k\u0101ds br\u012bnums, ka nervu sist\u0113ma s\u0101ka \u013curk\u0101ties? Sav\u0101 naivum\u0101 mekl\u0113ju gl\u0101bi\u0146u rajona partijas komitej\u0101. Bija tur t\u0101da sieva, uzv\u0101rd\u0101 Bo\u017ean*, atbild\u012bg\u0101 par skolu darbu. Tai tad nu izst\u0101st\u012bju, gan par latvie\u0161u sistem\u0101tisku piekau\u0161anu, gan par vaino\u0161anu \u201cnacion\u0101lism\u0101\u201d, ja iegad\u012bj\u0101s otr\u0101di, gan par puspaties\u012bb\u0101m un meliem, kas ind\u0113ja manu dz\u012bvi. Savu viz\u012bti pamatoju ar uztraukumu par administr\u0101cijas neprasm\u012bgo vad\u012bbu, kas, manupr\u0101t, kurina \u201cnaciona\u013cnuju roz\u0146\u201d**. Bo\u017ean uzman\u012bgi uzklaus\u012bja manis teikto, tad v\u0113l\u012bg\u0101 bals\u012b l\u016bdza, lai nule st\u0101st\u012bto iesnieguma form\u0101 uzrakstot un atnesot vi\u0146ai… (Pie reizes atz\u012b\u0161os, ka bija doma aiziet uz VDK rajona noda\u013cu, lai ar\u012b tur dar\u012btu zin\u0101mu, ka nevis latvie\u0161i slimo ar nacion\u0101lismu, bet krievu administr\u0101cija atbalsta, pat kultiv\u0113 lielkrievu \u0161ovinismu… No t\u0101 kol\u0113\u0123i atrun\u0101ja. B\u016btu aizg\u0101jusi, iesp\u0113jams, ietiktu \u201c\u010dekas maisos\u201d un tagad skait\u012btos a\u0123ente.)<\/span><\/p>\n

Stipri v\u0113l\u0101k sapratu, ka mans iesniegums k\u013cuvis par dokument\u0101ru pamatu sar\u012bd\u012bt pret mani krievu skol\u0113nus un skolot\u0101jus. Ar atpaka\u013c ejo\u0161u datumu tika sav\u0101kti skol\u0113nu zi\u0146ojumi. Tie apgalvoja, ka konkr\u0113t\u0101 datum\u0101 esmu nosaukusi par krievu c\u016bku konkr\u0113tu skol\u0113nu. Un tas nekas, ka da\u017e\u0101 bija\u00a0 min\u0113ts datums, kas iekrita sv\u0113tdien\u0101, vai man\u0101 metodiskaj\u0101*** dien\u0101. Zi\u0146ojumu bija tik daudz, ka var\u0113ja secin\u0101t: skolot\u0101ja Circene starpbr\u012b\u017eos neko citu nedara, k\u0101 skraida pa skolas gaite\u0146iem un apsauk\u0101 krievu skol\u0113nus par c\u016bk\u0101m! Var\u0113tu jau pasmieties… Tikai bija j\u0101dom\u0101, k\u0101das \u012bpa\u0161\u012bbas, k\u0101du dz\u012bves uztveri t\u0101du denunci\u0101ciju rakst\u012b\u0161anas rosin\u0101jums rada skol\u0113nos. Ar\u012b skolot\u0101ji tika attiec\u012bgi sagatavoti… J\u0101piebilst, ka man\u0101 leksik\u0101 visp\u0101r nav nacionalit\u0101tes savienojuma ar lopi\u0146iem. Vis\u0101 dz\u012bv\u0113 bijis viens vien\u012bgs gad\u012bjums. Aizr\u0101d\u012bju krievu \u0123imenei, kas cent\u0101s notiekt, metot ar sprungu\u013ciem un akme\u0146iem v\u0113l nenogatavoju\u0161os kasta\u0146us, kad \u0123imenes m\u0101te tie\u0161i mani nosauca par latvie\u0161u c\u016bku, bet es apsm\u0113jusies nokrist\u012bju vi\u0146u par krievu govi… Bet tas bija \u0101rpus skolas.<\/span><\/p>\n

Reiz pie manis uz m\u0101ju atn\u0101ca ang\u013cu valodas skolot\u0101ja. T\u0101 pati, kuras stund\u0101 pirmoreiz tika piemin\u0113tas c\u016bkas. Sa\u0161utusi vi\u0146a st\u0101st\u012bja, ka administr\u0101cija vienu dienu atbr\u012bvojusi vi\u0146u no stund\u0101m, lai kol\u0113\u0123e var\u0113tu tikt uz VDK, bet tur vi\u0146u tincin\u0101ju\u0161i par mani. Esot inform\u0101cija, ka vi\u0146a bijusi kl\u0101t, kad es apsauk\u0101jusi krievu skol\u0113nus. Tagad vi\u0146ai pa\u0161ai epizode j\u0101apraksta un j\u0101paraksta.<\/span><\/p>\n

– J\u0101, es esmu dz\u0113r\u0101ja, bet t\u0101p\u0113c jau man nav j\u0101b\u016bt nelietei! \u2013 kol\u0113\u0123e sa\u0161utusi teica. – Anni\u0146, r\u0113\u0137inies, ka tev gatavo pamat\u012bgus s\u016bdus! Man \u010dek\u0101 pieteica, lai es nevienam nest\u0101stot, ka esmu pie vi\u0146iem bijusi. Man nosp\u013cauties, ka vi\u0146i teica! Man bija tevi j\u0101br\u012bdina… Vi\u0146i dom\u0101, ka es apmelo\u0161u cilv\u0113ku t\u0101p\u0113c, ka \u0161ie piesedz manus plostus. T\u0101 nu gr\u016bd\u012bs taksim taukus! – Skaidr\u012bte ilgi nesp\u0113ja nomierin\u0101ties… Dr\u012bz vien vi\u0146u atlaida no darba. Ar ierakstu: par iera\u0161anos darb\u0101 reibuma st\u0101vokl\u012b…<\/span><\/p>\n

Es, protams, sapratu, ka uz VDK sauks ar\u012b citus man tuv\u0101kos kol\u0113\u0123us, un br\u012bdin\u0101ju vi\u0146us. Tagad, atceroties Ilm\u0101ra acis sarunas laik\u0101, man j\u0101dom\u0101, ka br\u012bdin\u0101jums bija n\u0101cis par v\u0113lu: vi\u0146\u0161 tur jau bija bijis… P\u0113c Atmodas Totalit\u0101risma noziegumu izmekl\u0113\u0161anas centrs izsniedza man apliecin\u0101jumu, ka pret mani bijusi s\u0101kta lieta. Tur viss, kas par mani sagvelzts, ir\u00a0 fiks\u0113ts. Tiesa, \u201cstu\u010d\u012bt\u0101ju\u201d uzv\u0101rdu viet\u0101 ir uzv\u0101rda, v\u0101rda, t\u0113vv\u0101rda pirmie burti, bet tos jau nebija gr\u016bti at\u0161ifr\u0113t… Paldies Dievam, Ilm\u0101ra inici\u0101\u013cu nebija. Ja t\u0101 konkr\u0113ti j\u0101saka, tad no latvie\u0161iem \u201c\u0161tu\u010d\u012bjusi\u201d bija vien\u012bgi direktrise. Ar no\u017e\u0113lu j\u0101atz\u012bst, ka vi\u0146a starp \u0161ovinistiem gandr\u012bz bija t\u0101 liel\u0101k\u0101. Nu, visiem jau zin\u0101ms, kas ir liel\u0101ks katolis par p\u0101vestu…<\/span><\/p>\n

Un tad maija otraj\u0101 pus\u0113 bija atkl\u0101t\u0101**** partijas sapulce, ku\u0157\u0101 krievu administr\u0101cija bija iecer\u0113jusi pielikt treknu punktu manai pedago\u0123iskajai \u201ckarjerai\u201d: vispirms izsl\u0113gt mani no partijas, tad \u201cnok\u0101rtot pap\u012brus\u201d par manu neatbilst\u012bbu pedagoga darbam. Ko tik es tur par sevi neuzzin\u0101ju !——————-<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0*Uzv\u0101rd\u0101 saglab\u0101ta t\u0101 laika rakst\u012bba.<\/span><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

**Nacion\u0101l\u0101s nesaska\u0146as.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

***Reizi ned\u0113\u013c\u0101 skolot\u0101jiem pie\u0161\u0137\u012bra br\u012bvu dienu metod. darbam.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

****T\u0101d\u0101s bija j\u0101piedal\u0101s ar\u012b bezpartijiskajiem<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

Koverda krat\u012bja pap\u012bru \u017e\u016bksni, apgalvodama: tie visi ir zi\u0146ojumi par manu nepedago\u0123isko r\u012bc\u012bbu un nacion\u0101lisma izpausm\u0113m. Tad izbr\u012bn\u012bjusies ieraudz\u012bju piece\u013camies Vdovi\u010devu, krievu kol\u0113\u0123i, kas man vienm\u0113r bija patikusi. V\u0113l \u0161odien v\u0101rds v\u0101rd\u0101 atceros vi\u0146as sac\u012bto:<\/span><\/p>\n

– Amerik\u0101\u0146i, skanot ASV himnai, tur roku uz sirds. T\u0101pat vi\u0146i ciena savu karogu. Bet skolot\u0101ja Circene, kad mana klase vad\u012bja radio raid\u012bjumu par m\u016bsu karogu, ielauz\u0101s radiomezgl\u0101 un auroja: \u201cKo j\u016bs te run\u0101jat!\u201d – Sastingusi klaus\u012bjos un dom\u0101ju: ja t\u0101 patie\u0161\u0101m b\u016btu noticis, tad ta\u010du bez kav\u0113\u0161an\u0101s bija j\u0101izsauc \u0101tr\u0101s pal\u012bdz\u012bbas brig\u0101de ar trako kreklu…<\/span><\/p>\n

Es atcer\u0113jos to gad\u012bjumu. Toreiz audzin\u0101\u0161anas stund\u0101 vidusskolas latvie\u0161u klas\u0113m z\u0101l\u0113 bija paredz\u0113ta lekcija. Jau biju iepaz\u012bstin\u0101jusi auditoriju ar vieslektoru, kad p\u0113k\u0161\u0146i drausm\u012bgi ska\u013ci ieblark\u0161\u0137\u0113j\u0101s ska\u013crunis. Es tie\u0161\u0101m iemetos radiomezgl\u0101 un l\u016bdzu, lai atsl\u0113dz ska\u0146u z\u0101lei, paskaidrojot, ka mums ir lekcija… \u0160\u0137ita, ka Vdovi\u010deva saprata: run\u0101ju ta\u010du krieviski! Atgriezos z\u0101l\u0113, atvainojos lektoram, vi\u0146\u0161 tikko paguva sasveicin\u0101ties ar klaus\u012bt\u0101jiem, kad atkal \u2013 blarrr, blarrr, blarrr…<\/span><\/p>\n

P\u0101rskaitusies atkal iebr\u0101zos pie \u201cp\u0101rraides vad\u012bt\u0101jiem\u201d. Visi mikrofoni bija iesl\u0113gti, t\u0101p\u0113c noteikti vis\u0101 skol\u0101 bija dzirdams, k\u0101 es saucu: ko j\u016bs dar\u0101t! Atsl\u0113dziet ta\u010du beidzot z\u0101li! Diem\u017e\u0113l neviens Vdovi\u010devu toreiz sapulc\u0113 nepalaboja…\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

V\u0113l \u0161ai sapulc\u0113 izskat\u012bja \u201cdokumentu vilto\u0161anas lietu\u201d. Manas klases Ivo desmitaj\u0101 klas\u0113 bija atst\u0101ts uz otru gadu. M\u0101te m\u0113\u0123in\u0101ja pierun\u0101t izsniegt liec\u012bbu bez divniekiem, lai puisis var\u0113tu 11. klasi pabeigt vakarskol\u0101. M\u016bsu attiec\u012bbas l\u012bdz \u0161im bija biju\u0161as \u013coti sirsn\u012bgas, t\u0101p\u0113c bija \u013coti ne\u0113rti, ka t\u0101da saruna visp\u0101r notiek.<\/span><\/p>\n

– \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ivo mamm, – teicu, – ja es ko t\u0101du sp\u0113tu izdar\u012bt, vai tad man visp\u0101r b\u016btu ties\u012bbas str\u0101d\u0101t skol\u0101? – Vi\u0146a ilgi man\u012b skat\u012bj\u0101s, tad noteica:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Kad ne, ne… Gan k\u0101ds cits izdar\u012bs.<\/span><\/p>\n

Un izdar\u012bja! Tas atkl\u0101j\u0101s tikai otr\u0101 ceturk\u0161\u0146a laik\u0101, kad, apzvan\u012bjusi visas vakarskolas, sadzinu Ivo p\u0113das 14. vakara vidusskol\u0101. Aizbraucu p\u0113c izzi\u0146as, kas apstiprin\u0101tu, ka skolnieks ir pie vietas, nebland\u0101s bez izgl\u012bt\u012bbas apk\u0101rt, un uzzin\u0101ju, ka vi\u0146\u0161 ieskait\u012bts 11. klas\u0113. Pal\u016bdzu apskat\u012bties liec\u012bbu: t\u0101 bija gl\u012bt\u0101, p\u0113r\u013cain\u0101 rokrakst\u0101 aizpild\u012bta, un ar\u012b klases audzin\u0101t\u0101jas, proti, mans, paraksts bija tik pat p\u0113r\u013caini skaists! Man t\u0101ds nekad neizn\u0101ktu. Es pazinu p\u0113r\u013cain\u0101 raksta \u012bpa\u0161nieci… Hincenberga.<\/span><\/p>\n

Protams, inform\u0113ju skolas vad\u012bbu.\u00a0 Ar\u012b par viltot\u0101ju. Skolas z\u012bmogu gan var\u0113ja uzlikt tikai pati direktrise, ta\u010du pab\u0101zt z\u012bmogo\u0161anai starp tr\u012bsdesmit liec\u012bb\u0101m vienu viltotu nebija sare\u017e\u0123\u012bti…<\/span><\/p>\n

Sapulc\u0113 Hincenberga past\u0101st\u012bja, ka tikai iedevusi m\u0101tei t\u012bru, neaizpild\u012btu liec\u012bbu, jo man t\u0101das neesot bijis, un ka p\u0113c\u0101k m\u0101te jau aizpild\u012btu un apz\u012bmogotu esot atradusi sav\u0101 pastkast\u012bt\u0113… Sapulce notic\u0113ja \u0161iem meliem. Vain\u012bg\u0101 izr\u0101d\u012bjos es…<\/span><\/p>\n

M\u0101j\u0101s p\u0101rn\u0101kusi, teicu d\u0113lam, ka neredzu veidu, k\u0101 \u0161o zemiskuma kampa\u0146u aptur\u0113t, ja nu vien\u012bgi izdarot pa\u0161n\u0101v\u012bbu. Vai pasl\u0113pjoties psihiatriskaj\u0101 slimn\u012bc\u0101… D\u0113ls piezvan\u012bja \u0101trajiem un jaut\u0101ja, ko dar\u012bt, ja cilv\u0113ks sol\u0101s izdar\u012bt pa\u0161n\u0101v\u012bbu. Brig\u0101di sagaid\u012bju nopu\u0146\u0137ojusies, noraud\u0101jusies, tr\u012bco\u0161\u0101m rok\u0101m, \u013cimsto\u0161\u0101m k\u0101j\u0101m…<\/span><\/p>\n

Mana \u0101rst\u0113jo\u0161\u0101 psihiatre bija daktere Saul\u012bte. Vi\u0146a katru dienu sauca mani uz p\u0101rrun\u0101m un lika st\u0101st\u012bt par iemesliem, k\u0101p\u0113c esmu \u0161eit. St\u0101st\u012bju par teroru skol\u0101, l\u012bdz \u0101rste p\u0101rsteidza ar v\u0101rdiem:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u0160ito j\u016bs man vairs nest\u0101stiet! Cit\u0101di b\u016b\u0161u spiesta atz\u012bt j\u016bs par psihiski slimu… – Apklusu. P\u0113c tam pajaut\u0101ju:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ko tad man st\u0101st\u012bt?<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Par m\u0101tes slim\u012bbu, par lielo darba slodzi…<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0Ar ierakstu par neatbilst\u012bbu pedago\u0123iskajam darbam mani no darba padz\u012bt neizdev\u0101s, jo toreiz sapulce nobalsoja tikai par r\u0101jienu. Tad nu administr\u0101cija iedom\u0101j\u0101s, ka aizie\u0161u \u201cp\u0113c pa\u0161as v\u0113l\u0113\u0161an\u0101s\u201d, ja \u201csit\u012bs ar rubli\u201d, proti, tarific\u0113jot vienu slodzi un nedodot audzin\u0101\u0161an\u0101 klasi: es mait\u0101jot b\u0113rnus. Es savuk\u0101r nol\u0113mu: nek\u0101 nebija, m\u012bl\u012b\u0161i, es aizie\u0161u, nevis kad j\u016bs, bet gan pati grib\u0113\u0161u! Sakodu zobus un str\u0101d\u0101ju, nek\u0101das pretenzijas neizteicot: biju p\u0101rliecin\u0101ta, ka vi\u0146i vienk\u0101r\u0161i b\u016bs spiesti gan stundas v\u0113l iedot, gan klasi. T\u0101 ar\u012b notika: p\u0113c div\u0101m ned\u0113\u013c\u0101m direktrise pati bija spiesta mani ieaicin\u0101t kabinet\u0101, lai pazi\u0146otu, ka man n\u0101ksies uz\u0146emties audzin\u0101t\u0101jas pien\u0101kumus sept\u012btaj\u0101 klas\u0113 un m\u0101c\u012bt valodu v\u0113l da\u017e\u0101s latvie\u0161u klas\u0113s…<\/span><\/p>\n

Tas bija 1987.\/88. m\u0101c\u012bbu gads: vald\u012bja lielu notikumu priek\u0161nojautas. Janv\u0101r\u012b pie manis atn\u0101ca da\u017ei 11. klases audz\u0113k\u0146i. Vi\u0146i gribot dibin\u0101t t\u0101du k\u0101 domubiedru pulci\u0146u, kas var\u0113tu pa reizei pulc\u0113ties p\u0101rrun\u0101t aktualit\u0101tes. Vi\u0146upr\u0101t, ar\u012b man taj\u0101 noteikti j\u0101b\u016bt, un, t\u0101 k\u0101 skol\u0101 \u0161\u0101das aktivit\u0101tes neesot iesp\u0113jamas, tad pulc\u0113ties var\u0113tu man\u0101 dz\u012bvokl\u012b… Sev\u012b klus\u012bb\u0101 pairgojos: jaunie\u0161i liel\u0101koties dz\u012bvoja vai nu kooperat\u012bvos tr\u012bsistabu dz\u012bvok\u013cos vai pat atsevi\u0161\u0137\u0101 m\u0101j\u0101, tom\u0113r pulc\u0113ties vis\u0113rt\u0101k b\u016btu pie manis, komun\u0101la dz\u012bvok\u013ca vien\u0101 istab\u0101!<\/span><\/p>\n

Ies\u0101kum\u0101 m\u0113s bij\u0101 vien da\u017ei: J\u0101nis, Haralds, Modris, es un, protams, mans d\u0113ls, kam vienk\u0101r\u0161i nebija citas iesp\u0113jas k\u0101 piedal\u012bties: viss ta\u010du notika m\u016bsu vien\u012bgaj\u0101 istab\u0101. Bija interesanti. Nol\u0113m\u0101m, k\u0101dus tematus p\u0101rrun\u0101sim, kas refer\u0113s, kas korefer\u0113s, l\u0113mumu pie\u0146emsim p\u0113c konsensus<\/em> principa. Reiz J\u0101nis un Modris atn\u0101ku\u0161i saka:<\/span><\/p>\n

– Skolot\u0101j, m\u0113s uzrakst\u012bj\u0101m pieteikumu iest\u0101jai LNNK. Jums ar\u012b atnes\u0101m veidlapu. – V\u0113l\u0101k, ar d\u0113lu p\u0101rrun\u0101jot, sm\u0113jos:<\/span><\/p>\n

– Viens po\u013cu skolot\u0101js kop\u0101 ar saviem audz\u0113k\u0146iem dev\u0101s g\u0101zes kamer\u0101, tad nu es lai neiest\u0101tos LNNK?!<\/span><\/p>\n

Notikumi norisa strauji. Maij\u0101 ar \u201cdomubiedru grupu\u201d brauc\u0101m sakopt v\u0101cu karav\u012bru kapus pie Kalnciema. Man sirds stinga, pamanot, ka mums gar\u0101m vair\u0101kas reizes l\u0113n\u0101m pabrauc viena un t\u0101 pati viegl\u0101 ma\u0161\u012bna. Ierun\u0101jos par to skol\u0113niem, vi\u0146us tas nemaz neuztrauca. Dom\u0101ju: eh, kas, b\u016bs, b\u016bs… K\u0101 tad: vien\u0101 br\u012bd\u012b, kad, nu jau darbi\u0146u pabeigu\u0161i, s\u0113\u017eam un uzko\u017eam sviestmaizes, ma\u0161\u012bna apst\u0101jas un pie mums n\u0101k k\u0101ds v\u012brs. Gaid\u0101m, ko nu teiks. Sasveicin\u0101s, sak\u0101s esam viet\u0113j\u0101s varas p\u0101rst\u0101vis un priec\u0101joties, ka esam sakopu\u0161i vienu dzimt\u0101s zemes st\u016br\u012bti. Jaut\u0101, no kuras skolas, kuras klases. Z\u0113ni ar\u012b labpr\u0101t visu st\u0101sta. V\u012brs jaut\u0101, vai es esot \u0161o bra\u0161o z\u0113nu audzin\u0101t\u0101ja. Skol\u0113ni gatavi nosaukt manu uzv\u0101rdu, bet es pasteidzos pateikt, ka uzv\u0101rds nav vajadz\u012bgs, pietiek ar to, ka esmu skolot\u0101ja. (Nobijos, iedom\u0101dam\u0101s, kas notiks skol\u0101, kad priek\u0161s\u0113d\u0113t\u0101js piezvan\u012bs, lai pateiktu paldies skolai un \u201cnacion\u0101listei\u201d Circenei par v\u0101cu kapu sakop\u0161anu… Ar\u012b pui\u0161u klases audzin\u0101t\u0101ja greizsird\u012bb\u0101 var\u0113tu s\u0101kt skat\u012bties uz mani \u0161\u0137\u012bbi.)<\/span><\/p>\n

V\u0113l pa vidam starp abu pl\u016bsmu abiturientu klas\u0113m tika r\u012bkots konkurss par starpnacion\u0101liem jaut\u0101jumiem. Krievu skol\u0113ni bija tam gatavoti, latvie\u0161us vienk\u0101r\u0161i saaicin\u0101ja z\u0101l\u0113. Es pat apraud\u0101jos, saprazdama to k\u0101 k\u0101rt\u0113jo latvie\u0161u pazemo\u0161anas akciju. Pui\u0161i smaid\u012bja, mani mierinot un aicinot paskat\u012bties, k\u0101 vi\u0146i krieve\u013cus samas\u0113\u0161ot. T\u0101 ar\u012b bija: vi\u0146i ar pa\u0161u skol\u0101 piedz\u012bvotiem piem\u0113riem pier\u0101d\u012bja, ka dz\u012bv\u0113 tiek absol\u016bti ignor\u0113ti principi, kas deklar\u0113ti k\u0101 PSRS konstit\u016bcij\u0101, t\u0101 likumdo\u0161an\u0101. Jaunie\u0161i tie\u0161\u0101m bija mala\u010di. Faktiski konkurss izg\u0101z\u0101s, jo krievi, sam\u0101c\u012bju\u0161ies gr\u0101matas fr\u0101zes, apjuka, izdzirdu\u0161i m\u016bs\u0113jo pretargumentus. Es, protams, nevaru \u0161obr\u012bd atrefer\u0113t konkursa norisi, ta\u010du tas bija graujo\u0161i! \u201c\u017d\u016brijas loceklis\u201d Voroncovs, t\u0101ds laba barojuma resnis no\u00a0 CK, pat leca k\u0101j\u0101s un, lai cik necik ievirz\u012btu norisi iecer\u0113taj\u0101 gultn\u0113, run\u0101ja par \u0161odienas tendenci \u012bpa\u0161i izcelt latvie\u0161u valodu, par aicin\u0101jumiem krieviem atgriezties etniskaj\u0101 dzimtene, ja neprotot latviski…<\/span><\/p>\n

– Kak \u017ee tak? Ja z\u0123es rodilsja, skolu kon\u010dil i VUZ, i ja dol\u017een ujez\u017ea\u0137?!*- vi\u0146\u0161 retoriski vaic\u0101.<\/span><\/p>\n

Klaus\u012bt\u0101ji dr\u012bkst\u0113ja uzdot jaut\u0101jumus. Pac\u0113lu roku.<\/span><\/p>\n

Kak \u017ee vi umudri\u013cis z\u0123esj ro\u0123itsja, polu\u010di\u0137 vis\u0161eje obrazov\u0101\u0146ije i \u0146e osvoji\u0137 lati\u0161skij jazik?**<\/span><\/p>\n

— Vi \u0146e imeje\u0137e pravo zadava\u0137 takoi vopros!*** – Kliedz Koverda. Smiekliem pievienojas k\u0101ju r\u012bbin\u0101\u0161ana…<\/span><\/p>\n

——–<\/span><\/p>\n

*K\u0101 tad t\u0101? Es te piedzimu, pabeidzu augstskolu un man j\u0101brauc prom?!<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

**K\u0101 gan j\u016bs ieman\u012bj\u0101ties te piedzimt, ieg\u016bt augst\u0101ko izgl\u012bt\u012bbu un neapg\u016bt latvie\u0161u valodu?<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

***Jums nav ties\u012bbu uzdot \u0161\u0101du jaut\u0101jumu!<\/em> \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0Tad bija rado\u0161\u0101s inteli\u0123ences konference. Divas dienas Latvija dz\u012bvoja, piespiedusi ausi pie radio… Skol\u0101 organiz\u0113ja sl\u0113gtu partijas sapulci, kam bija j\u0101pie\u0146em rezol\u016bcija, kas nosod\u012btu konferences<\/span><\/p>\n

l\u0113mumus. Visvair\u0101k sa\u0161utuma bija izpeln\u012bjies \u0100brams K\u013cockins, at\u013caujoties nosaukt latvie\u0161us par unik\u0101lu tautu, kam cauri gadsimtiem izdevies saglab\u0101t savas vienreiz\u0113j\u0101s tautasdziesmas. Tas, l\u016bk, esot gal\u0113js nacion\u0101lisms \u2013 \u0161it\u0101 vienu tautu celt p\u0101ri cit\u0101m! Es \u0137i\u0137in\u0101ju: \u017e\u012bds K\u013cockins \u2013 latvie\u0161u nacion\u0101lists… Skolas partijas organiz\u0101cija sav\u0101 l\u0113mum\u0101 piepras\u012bja K\u013cockinu nodot tiesai. Vad\u012bba gaid\u012bja vienbals\u012bgu atbalstu l\u0113mumiem, bet viens biedrs nojauca scen\u0101riju…<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Anna Ado\u013cfovna, vi \u010dto, pro\u0137iv?!*<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ko\u0146e\u010dno.**<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tak i v\u0146esjom v protokol!*** – Koverdas bals\u012b skan draudi.<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ja prosto trebuju za\u0146es\u0137i!**** – teicu un izg\u0101ju no telpas.<\/span><\/p>\n

Izlaidum\u0101 p\u0113c svin\u012bg\u0101s da\u013cas, pieklupu mikrofonam un inform\u0113ju kl\u0101teso\u0161os par skolas interfrontes (t\u0101 v\u0113l ofici\u0101li nebija noform\u0113jusies, ta\u010du nosaukums jau g\u0101ja no mutes mut\u0113.) nosod\u012bjumu konferences rezol\u016bcij\u0101m un aicin\u0101ju parakst\u012bties tos, kas – glu\u017ei otr\u0101di – atbalsta rado\u0161o \u013cau\u017eu nost\u0101ju. Lai neizn\u0101ktu, ka m\u016bsu skol\u0101 valda pretlatvisks noska\u0146ojums. \u0160obr\u012bd nevaru skaidri pateikt, cik cilv\u0113ku parakst\u012bj\u0101s, bet lapas piecas (A4) ar parakstiem bija. Un kas pret to bija 20 komunistu parakstu?<\/span><\/p>\n

Ak, j\u0101! Izlaidum\u0101, kad \u201cdomubiedru\u201d grupa ar klasi k\u0101pa uz skatuves p\u0113c diplomiem, uzrad\u0101s k\u0101ds v\u012brs un Kalnciema padomes v\u0101rd\u0101 pateic\u0101s jaunajiem patriotiem, kas, neviena neaicin\u0101ti, sakopu\u0161i aizaugu\u0161us karav\u012bru kapus, ar\u012b v\u0101cu. Man ie\u0161\u0137ieba veselu kl\u0113pi ro\u017eu. Jutos visai ne\u0113rti, to sa\u0146emot, ta\u010du, kad ieraudz\u012bju sk\u0101bos smaidi\u0146os savilktos administr\u0101cijas \u0123\u012bmjus, k\u013cuva pat jautri.<\/span><\/p>\n

Da\u017eas dienas p\u0113c izlaiduma mani atkal iesauca direktrises kabinet\u0101, kur s\u0113d\u0113ja visi skolas \u201cto\u0146a noteic\u0113ji\u201d. Gaid\u012bju, ka p\u0101rmet\u012bs k\u0101du l\u012bdz galam nepadar\u012btu darbi\u0146u, t\u0101p\u0113c gandr\u012bz apkritu, kad direktrise, savilkusi l\u016bpas urskul\u012b, jaut\u0101ja:<\/span><\/p>\n

– Ar k\u0101d\u0101m ties\u012bb\u0101m j\u016bs, skolot\u0101ja Circene, izmantoj\u0101t skolas mikrofonu sav\u0101m politiskaj\u0101m amb\u012bcij\u0101m? – Man tas \u0161\u0137ita tik glupi un, galvenais, smiekl\u012bgi, ka apsm\u0113jos. Tobr\u012bd jau biju vienojusies ar citu skolu par darbu, t\u0101p\u0113c, smieklu asaras slauc\u012bdama, apgalvoju, ka nekad vairs t\u0101 nedar\u012b\u0161u…<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0Cita skola, citi darbi un kol\u0113\u0123i… \u201cDomu biedru grupa\u201d bija papla\u0161in\u0101jusies ar cilv\u0113kiem no Bolder\u0101jas, p\u0101rtapusi par LNNK grupu, ta\u010du joproj\u0101m pulc\u0113j\u0101s m\u016bsu istab\u0101. V\u0113l ar biju\u0161ajiem audz\u0113k\u0146iem kop\u0101 bij\u0101m LTF manifest\u0101cij\u0101 Me\u017eapark\u0101. Todien nep\u0101rtraukti lija. Kam\u0113r aiztik\u0101m l\u012bdz Lielajai estr\u0101dei, biju izmirkusi l\u012bdz \u0101dai. \u0160ausm\u012bgi grib\u0113j\u0101s visam atmest ar roku, m\u0101j\u0101s sadzerties karstu t\u0113ju un pal\u012bst zem segas… Bet labi \u013caudis bija par\u016bp\u0113ju\u0161ies, lai karsta t\u0113ja b\u016btu dab\u016bjama ar\u012b estr\u0101d\u0113. Turkl\u0101t lietus mit\u0113j\u0101s, uzsp\u012bd\u0113ja novakara saul\u012bte. Aps\u0113d\u0101mies pirmaj\u0101 rind\u0101, bai\u013codamies, vai neb\u016bsim vien\u012bgie manifest\u0101cijas dal\u012bbnieki… San\u0101ca t\u016bksto\u0161i! Nep\u0101rst\u0101st\u012b\u0161u visu run\u0101t\u0101ju teikto, tas izlas\u0101ms daudz kur. \u0160\u0137iet, visi pat elpoja vienoti. K\u0101ds mikrofon\u0101 pazi\u0146oja, ka atrasts lietussargs, maliet v\u0113l\u0101k pieteic\u0101s cilv\u0113ks, kas atradis naudasmaku…<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0Tad gan man\u012b uzviln\u012bja aizkustin\u0101jums un lepnums par latvie\u0161iem: starp t\u016bksto\u0161iem neatrad\u0101s neviens, kam b\u016btu iegrib\u0113jies piesavin\u0101ties sve\u0161u mantu…<\/span><\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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\u00a0<\/em>*Anna Ado\u013cfovna, j\u016bs esat pret?!<\/span><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

**Protams.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

*** T\u0101 ar\u012b ierakst\u012bsim protokol\u0101.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

**** Es vienk\u0101r\u0161i pieprasu to ierakst\u012bt!<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

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